After leaving yet another appointment with more questions than answers, one could say that it’s getting old. Due to the massive amount of pain I’m in, and the lack of improvement from my last procedure, my pain management doctor feels quite certain that my abdominal pain is not coming from the abdominal wall. His advice to my mom and I was basically to start at step 1. To go get second opinions.
Walking out of this appointment, I felt frustrated, exhausted, angry, and honestly, just fed up. I can’t believe that after a year of appointments, surgeries, and treatments, my pain is more severe than when it started, and I have no concrete answers. However, I am choosing to look on the bright side. Going to new doctors and starting fresh gives me the chance to reevaluate my condition. To seek out the best specialists, and use their fresh eyes on my stale problem. I hope that they will have new ideas for diagnoses and treatments. They might see something that my other doctors did not, or have an idea for a procedure that my previous doctors did not think of. I want to keep pushing because I refuse to lay down and accept the pain. I will keep searching for answers.
And to end on the highest note, here is a picture of my adorable cat, Brees, cuddling with a stuffed llama my boyfriend gave me after surgery.